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09:05 pm: Hello I'm back at Blogger. Boymeetsbra.blogspot.com, my old blog
Sick of not being able to put up nice layouts here. And too lazy to learn how too. 
So guess I'll be updating at Blogger. Check there for updates :)

07:48 pm: Met at nlb for a PW meeting today. John and I spent an hour and a half waiting for Clarence to arrive, and we spent a grand total of thirty minutes planning our project. Sigh. Haha, but at least it was something. Anyway, after that, we went to the arcade for some daytona (racing cars). Quite fun, I'm better at it now I think hahah. After that met Marc at Bugis. Shopped around is bugis is fun :) I'm going back to get a pair of blue gingerbread earrings :D yeappp. Anyway, I just realised that I'm pretty bad at judging someone's character. Always thought I was good at it but I guess I'm only accurate sometimes. Oh well. Oh yes. I'm thinking of using blogspot again. Just kinda miss it. 



Sometimes what people say can just be so hurtful. ):

01:29 am: Hello, I watched Mr Woodcock today, with Havin and Marc. It's a good show, it's actually pretty funny. Tons better than Balls of Fury. :) That aside. Today was open house and it was totally slack. We did busking but I guess we were pretty bad. Hardly caught the attention of anyone. And we only performed twice, to an almost non-existant audience. Also, got back frightening results today. Failed econs. Got below thirty wtf?? I honestly don't know how it happened.  ): Sigh. I guess life springs attacks on you every once in a while.. On the plus side, I passed math. At least I secured a H2 pass. 

08:28 pm: Another Blah day
Eight turned up for school today. Usually eight don't turn up, but today eight turned up. And a classmate went to Vietnam for a shopping trip! Haha ok, 1t12 is the class to be in people. Okay that aside. Today was really ultra boring. Lecture after lecture. :( Thank God for Adam, serioously. Otherwise I'd be as good as a stone everyday. Double GP period was great because we spent two hours watching a CNN video about the Israeli-Pakistani war that's been going on for two thousand years? Had some sorta discussion/debate thing with Mr Tamil. That intellectual dude started telling us his views on religion, on Christianity, etcetc. He thinks alot. Even said he could exploit the bible, haha. Okay, he said that playfully but it isn't an impossibility, realistically speaking (if you know what I mean.) Yeah.. And then nothing much happened.. Oh, I kinda like my Lit teacher (Mrs Sng, yes, shoot me) but I really think she's got kind of a good heart. And she's actually bright. I like her style of teaching. It isn't the usual run-on -the-mill Singaporean education style, but I learn alot. Cos she cuts to the chase and makes everything damn clear. We started on gothic lit today, pretty cool stuff. After school I went to Funan for lunch with my dad. had a brief discussion with him about the war issue we covered during GP. And you know this may seem kind of random but I've been thinking God's really unfair. In a sense that, He chooses who He wants to touch. And some people don't ever have to struggle for faith, God just touches them and Wham. But for others, we either have to struggle like crazy or beg Him etcetc before He decides to touch us. How fair is that? And those that get touched are changed forever. Seriously, why can't God just touch everybody without us having to think so much. Why why why why why. And yes, God should know I am about the most stubborn girl ever. So, I guess it's really hard to convince me. Oh well. Okay. On a lighter note, tomorrow is open house. Welcome newbies! Percussion's going busking yay we rock :) I bought funky hair accessories for my sectionmates. Woohoo :)) Hope we do fine tomorrow! Only two days of practice. Wish us all the best man.

01:38 am: Don't look back in anger
Hey, I'm sick and stuck at home (for good!) I bet half the class won't turn up tomorrow.. Judging by the attendance today. Haha. There's openhouse dry-run tomorrow? So I'll be in school only for CCA. Damn worried about open house seriously. Only one day to practice our busking (Percussion's doing busking by the way) We gotta practise till we're tight in such a short period of time. Hope we pull it off :/ That aside, watched Nanny's Diaries yesterday. It's alright. Harvard Hottie is really hot! Haha. And, I need to shop! Life sucks. School sucks. ):

02:54 pm:  You amaze me. All you care about is what you think people think of you. Awesome. Happy birthday, by the way.

11:08 pm: I plucked my eyebrows today. But it still looks very natural, just what I wanted. :) at least they don't appear artificial and all. Anyway, I just took a test from OkCupid. It's on my facebook now. Here's the link to my result: http://www.okcupid.com/personality?type=RGLD&g=0&o=1 I think there may be a link there to the test as well..

02:42 pm: Stupid people. and stupid things
Hello, Maria called this morning. :) Initially I had alot to tell her, but when stuff accumulates till the end of the week I really can't remember what I was supposed to rant. Maybe this shows that all the little things that crop up everyday aren't important at all. Trivial matters that piss you off. Oh well. That aside, it's Chewy's and Sinee's Baptism day today :) Ven's going to church. Heh, congrats you two! Okay, more updates on life: 1) Promos are over!!! (hooray, but now there's humongous stress over results) 2) I shopped and actually bought some pretty good stuff. :)

The chem paper was beyond terrible. I guess I only have myself to blame because I lost all drive towards the end of the week. Well, what's done is done. I know I will fail, but can't do anything about it now. Hope my H2s will pull me up. 

Shopping: I bought a Fox cropped cardigan (grey hoodie!!) quite a  special design. Also got myself a Zara black basic and a River Island wallet. Quite happy with my puchases, but I'm broke now (seriously zero dollars) and kind of regretting spending so much. Especially on that Fox hoodie. Who wears hoodies past twenty? Not a long term investment. Therefore I'm deeming it kind of a waste of money. :(

I think I've figured it all out: I just want to know if I'm given free will.

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10:39 pm: Random Rantings (mostly about shopping, so guys you may want to skip this entry):
1. I saw my pink sequinned topshop skirt that I've wanted since forever in town but couldn't find my size. ARGHHH. Really really upset cos it's such a pretty thing :( and I had cash today! In shopping you win some you lose some :(
2. Pretty bag at URS going at 10% off, such a steal but ain't the prettiest thing I'd seen so didn't buy it. Looked so good from afar but when I went into the shop for a closer look, realised the material wasn't awesome after all. Sometimes things look great at first impression, but jumping to assumptions isn't wise.
3. Looking for nice looking wallets is such a chore. Walked all over town trying to find something that looked remotely classy/fashionable/chic, but no luck this time. Guess wallets were way too loud. And everything else just didn't do it for me.

Guys learn about life through sports? and shopping is the way girls learn the ways of life. Haha, to some extent anyways. :)

10:19 pm:  My dad's friend just died :( she's only in her mid fifties. She's left behind her husband and a son. And to think I had some connection with her in the past, to know that someone so vivacious and loving can have her life taken away so abruptly by cancer. Life is really so fleeting and transient. Yet so precious. How much control do we have over our time of existence on earth? Or is fate and destiny (ie God) really the master behind all this? I feel sometimes, we're merely puppets on a huge stage, when our role is over we're no longer needed. Is life really so unfeeling? And not to mention, unfair? Sometimes I feel we're on earth just so slog our guts out. And for what reason? The joys of life, in my opinion, are not worth living for if you factor in all the traumas/tragedies that confront us. All what's more, all is gone after death. Our experiences, our possessions; everything vanishes into thin air. Sure, we may influence people or even generations after us, but we gain nothing as an individual. In this aspect, I feel that life is inherently cruel. It's like we're being used. Maybe if what God said is true, about purpose in life and all that, then I think life would make more sense. If He's true to His word, there'll be a heaven to look forward to. And everything we do will have meaning. But, if what He says is false, then.. I guess God is pretty cruel.

08:53 pm: Hullo. GP exam was horrible. Horrible horrible horrible :( I am really going to fail this time. My essay was only two pages long. And I didn't finish AQ. So, yes, I'm saying hello to my first U for promos. SIGH. That aside. I really need some company, just really anyone. A companion is so important. Maria called me that day to talk for a mere half an hour? And I felt so much better. I just need to talk la seriously. But I think the lack of companionship has also helped me grow up alot, in the sense that now I have no one to complain to now. Haha. I have to keep almost everything to myself (I mean all the small annoying stuff that happens everyday) By not complaining I learn to get over things and stop brooding. So I guess that's the positive part. Yup. My dad told me yesterday that I've grown up alot this year. I don't know if that's true. Sometimes I don't know what reality is. I'm still figuring stuff out. Sometimes I think reality's kinda something I force myself to face (well, I guess that's what we all do?) Hmm. Maybe I'm still in the process of accepting reality. Oh well. It's a good start. I'm finally growing up. I guess it's true what they say, You only start to grow when you're out of your comfort zone.

PS. I will be taking my SATs next June! Added stress :(

09:35 pm:  Hi, I just realised every post on this blog is a sad one. I'm a freaking emo kid! Hahah. Anyway I'm here to post my first happy post. Something a little less depressing. Yeah but nonetheless. THURSDAY IS A FREAKING HOLIDAY! Study break, how awesome. And oh yes, suspension that day was like the coolest bestest thing since march. Hah. You sit outside the staffroom and do nothing till one oclock. Like Christine said, it's such an irony that they punish us by giving us something we love. We get to miss lessons and slack because we slacked? Wtf what is the world coming to. In any case, (: can't wait for break. I need to go out and relax and stop worrying/thinking so much. I'm driving myself nuts.  Sigh. One more day of school, go grace.

09:30 am: I hate school
I've been sleeping at 2/3am for two days straight. Clarence and Rebekah have been sleeping at 5 or something. PW sucks SO BAD. Worst of all, because sleep so late, I wake up late and hence have no time to tuck in my blouse. And today Tan Jek Suan caught me for an untucked shirt and a short skirt wtf? I told him I'd never gotten caught before, and he said "Well now you are." Well obviously he didn't get my point. I thought he would've somehow understood that these few days all J1s have been rushing PW, and waking up late etc etc and I'm a good girl and I tuck my blouse almost everyday and my skirt actually approaches my knee (a miracle in JC?) Sigh. Oh well. I gotta meet Micheal Tan to get suspended next week. Great, just great.

01:10 am: Caught my dad snooping around my xanga site just now and totally freaked out. So now my url's officially changed to this lj one. Locked my xanga one up. To fend off sneaky parents. And, just so you know and as if you didn't already know, pw is a bloody waste of time and it totally, totally sucks :(

05:46 pm: Going crazy.

Hello, school is driving me berserk. The droning voice of every teacher, the hour-long lectures that feel like you've been rotting in the LT for eternity, people, PEOPLE, and Adam seems to be my conscience. Hahaha, though he says he doesn't have one. Sigh, I feel like I'm really just going nuts. Think I will be chilling out full-time after promos. But what are the chances of that when band starts again, and I am going to be hammered left right and centre by my dear conductor? (Think outdoor performance, reportoire of jap pop songs, and my lousy drumset skills!) I'll never be good enough for that high strung overachiever. ): One word: DRAINED.

09:23 pm: I get really angry when people cancel on me last minute and they don't tell me until I ask them. Like hell, don't promise anything if you can't fulfill it! I make effort to keep that day free and it annoys me that the other party really doesn't care at all. It's not like my time is free, I do have my own plans too. Or maybe it's just me. I'm not your priority. But even then, at least have the courtesy to tell me like one or two days before? 

People are so annoying. Having said all this, I'm also feeling very guilty because I used to cancel on Maria all the time due to my parents curfews and whatnots. So yeah.  ):

Today was outrageously boring. Yes, that statement was not exaggerated at all. I had lunch with my parents, studied at the gardens, came home, read the papers, watched some tv, dinner, blogging. Really disappointed with myself for the lack of discipline. Been seriously trying to settle down and get some revising done, but no such opportunity. (Or maybe they've just passed me by, knowing how often I give myself excuses to slack) I really need to start serious studying already. Everyone's mugging really hard like overnight study and all, it's so scary. I'm starting to feel the heat. ): Oh well, two/three more weeks, will try my best and I hope results won't be a disappointment! 

10:19 pm: Don't look back in anger

09:14 pm: Yellow Submarine
Good day folks. Today wasn't bad at all. Went to school for two hours (or more) of lit mass tutorial! (The LT was freezing cold, I swear no one could concentrate.) Adam slept on the bench behind us, haha, and got away scott free. (Totally blind teacher? Or maybe she's just given up) Anyhows. That aside, everything went pretty okay. I completed one more math tutorial, and mind you it was TRANSFORMATION *shudders* and neatened up everything else for tomorrow's mass pia-ing session (Rishi, Jiffsen, Joey, Chris, Pheobe & myself!) The bandmates unite. :) Yuppp. And I just came back from Hard Rock Cafe. Was starving, and for the first time, actually finished my main dish. Heh. Dessert was a brownie fudge pie with Haagen Dazs ice cream(vanilla)! Totally yummy, I can see you drooling :) haha! Right. Really tired now, but I'll try to complete one more tutorial, and then it'll be time to hit the sack. 

08:49 pm:  ARGH, I can't seem to get the pictures on the layout appear! :(

08:01 pm: Hello there, my Goodbye Girl
I like everything about LJ except the fact that it doesn't have the 'symbols' option. So you can't paste like cool hearts and crosses and stuff, unlike in Xanga. No ecomotions too. Nevertheless, LJ's really user-friendly! And the community thing is just wayy cool :) ANYWAY. I'm really pissed with my mom. She's starting to restrict my freedom again and it is pissing me off big time. Just cos I told her that today's study date wasn't the most productive session I've had, she nagged me just now (with a very, very annoying tone may I add) that I can't go out tomorrow yadayadayada. Kind of reminds me of the O-level days when she locked me up at home. Hah, bad memories indeed. Exact words: "Just cos po-po gave you an extra hundred, doesn't mean you can go gallavating tomorrow after lessons ok! You better study at home do you hear!" WTF. How many times does she want me to remind her that I CANNOT study at home? I'll just fall asleep la. I can't understand why she still cannot trust me after I've proven myself through the mids. URGH. When will she ever let me go? :'(